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Everyone loves porn. Don’t they?
This past week has been filled with porn. Lots and lots of porn. Some of my week has included talking to people about making porn, processing about the affects of porn that become interwoven into intimate relationships and finally, making some porn of my own.
In this whole mess of pornographic wonderfulness, I don’t think I have actually watched a single minute of actual porn. I guess I have always been more of the do-er then the view-er, if you can make that assumption about me.
So let me touch on those three aspects that have been involved in my “All I see is Porn” week:
1. Talking to people about making porn
I am not referencing the holding mild conversations with people who have done porn or who are about to shoot some porn. No. I am talking about the awkward situations when you are sitting with Person A and Person A is fully aware of your choice in sex work. When suddenly the conversation turns from not your career choices to the ever so sexy question “ Have you ever thought about doing porn?” Once that question is said, the conversation can never be the same. From point of vocalization, three things can happen.
a. Person A’s politics become loud and clear that they might think sex work is bad for you but it definitely is not okay/comfortable/settling for them to do.
b. Person A gets shy and kind of blushes. They ask for information about shooting porn and why you think they would be good in porn, blah blah blah. Person A does not follow through past taking a business card and carrying it worn and weary in their wallet.
c. Person A is very excited, follows through and bam! Person has made a porn.
Queer porn (made for queers or made by queers) needs diversity and real people. I seem to talk a lot about porn because I am excited to make it and I think it would be great to convey that excitement to other people to get excited to make porn. I am just really excited. All the time.
2. Processing about porn
If you are not privy to the idea/notion/situation of processing, allow me to introduce you to processing. The act of processing is defined as a conversation by two individuals where the two individuals talk about their feelings/reactions/thought/emotions about a certain topic. Most often people process about relationships and the phase or space they are in. In my world we process about porn and sex work. It is quite a fantastic journey and hard adventure to involve people’s emotions revolving around porn. It is often (unfortunately) the case where one party who makes porn tries to explain the nature of sex work as Work and the ideas and emotions that are placed upon any kind of intense work form. The other party tries to explain the insecurities or fears of their friend/partner/lover sleeping with someone else while being involved with them. I feel it is two people’s views on the two words that make up the act that porn is located under: sex work. I look at it as work. Someone else might look at it as just sex. It is a very difficult process to discuss with a partner. I have seen good amazing friends of mine go through hardship and heartache in dealing with the emotions of someone who may or may not understand their line of work. I have been through the same struggle with two of my former partners. Not glamorous in the slightest bit, it unfortunately comes with the territory of making porn and having personal intimate relationships.
3. Making porn
The last but not least of “ all I see is Porn” week has been the making of porn. I had two porn shoots this past week. I had a slight bit of hesitation because my one and only porn shoot in the past with Pink and White productions was shoot with my girlfriend at the time. We did the scene and it was a fantastic experience, but finally being a space to shoot with someone I had never been involved with was a little nerve-racking. I didn’t know how I was going to react or if I was going to like the experience. I had had such an amazing time on Superfreak that I was willing to try my love of making porn again and actually experience the wonders of discovering someone’s energy intimately all on film. I shot for a local bondage/fetish website first and the experience was incredible. The area of BDSM is a love of mine and being able to experience a shoot in that area was life changing. The second shoot I did was for the third production of Pink and White productions. In this scene I was scheduled to shoot with a good close friend of mine. We both agreed that we were professionals and that we loved and adored each other. The shoot went amazing and I feel we are closer than we were before. I realized I really enjoy making porn and I would like to continue doing it when the chances arrive.
So that was the synopsis of my “All I see is Porn” week. I’m sure this isn’t the last time I will talk about porn. If you like porn, scream like you mean it.
I always do!
